What the hell is this!?

Yeah, now I’ll bring strange people to this blog. People who want to take a closer look at this gruesomely gross picture.

The headline above, is not going to be answered in this post. Because, I do not know what’s going on in the picture. Even though it’s actually MY OWN KNEE. Kind of scary. First, I get a blister, for no reason! Thought it was some usual pimple or something so I poked it and it broke. (stop reading if you think it’s disgusting). Then, it turned into a wound, but it never bled. It is just weeping lymph or something, the thin skin is coming off and.. it is also growing in size… ehh eww…

The kind of flat area in the middle is where the blister was.. the rest is how much it grown since… again.. ewwww… and it’s like… STUCK.. no.. it .. it… IS ME … EWWWW…..  and the stupid care centre only gave me BAND-AIDS.. uhh.

So – If you know what this is.. please tell me…

Don’t worry about the green spots – I made them with a permanent marker, so that I can see if it gets bigger….

Yours, nauseated SockFusion

To me, a day off is…

… a day off – of course! But to my teachers, it is a day to study extra hard. That includes weekends and vacations. Sometimes, I just don’t agree with the education system, I mean – if we’re given so much homework and there’s so many exams planned that we have to study late at nights and on vacations and weekends to get good grades… How can they expect us to be awake and ALERT during the lessons?

It is an eternal struggle, exemplia gratia; Math!

  • In order to understand what my math teacher* says during the lessons I have to study at home
  • In order to be able to study at home I first have to understand what my teacher said during the lesson

In the beginning of the year, when we don’t have that much homework, things are fine. But then they give us more and more, eventually we have to prioritize the subjects that we aren’t allowed to fail and the subjects we’d rather study and been really good at – has to suffer. This means that we’ll get at least decent grades in the subjects we have to pass but we don’t get the high grades in the subjects we like and could have gotten really good at. Everything is rushed… students are being wornout since the teachers have expectations but doesn’t give us the right amount of time!

* But… it doesn’t really matter if I’m awake or not when listening to my math teacher – nobody ever understands what he says anyway…

So, today was a day off to me. I ate breakfast (flatbread! flatbread!) at 8 o’clock, not half past five as usual, watched some tv and surfed the web. I told myself yesterday to study – but a day off obviously inevitably IS a day off… Around two o’clock I went to Malmö with my mum, to pick up my sisters (they still had to go to school hehe…) and buy some shoes. Also, my little sisters friends mum (connections!) is a physiotherapist and she had offered to take a look at my knee! So she did and she said there was a lot of gnarls in my muscles… therefore she massaged it. It hurt, A LOT . So now it feels like my thigh/crural and knee has been hit by something… like a… physiotherapist. It feels like a big big bruise and it smells tiger balm/liniment. But! It does feel better, not as rickety anymore!

After some kneading we went food-shopping and I got THE LAST OAT MILK IN THE WHOLE STORE! *phew* I was lucky… I also got a free pack of bread… hehe (coupon). We went home and ate wheel-macaroni and mincemeat sauce (very common dish among swedish families with children). After that I tried roasting some muesli… unfortunately.. I should have added more syrup – which I don’t want to because it makes it unhealthy… But! I could eat it as ‘dessert’ with fruit then! healthy dessert!

If I make a good muesli – I’ll put up a recipe here  

Oh! Almost forgot! When I sat in front of my desk, surfing the web I heard something twitter and saw this little fellow… He/she is a Eurasian Tree Sparrow (“Pilfink” in swedish)… Wish it was a Blue Tit (“Blåmes” in swedish) though since they’re so cute..

Yours, SockFusion 

Sunny soon? (Bit of a “note to self”)

I have a few things to deal with, before things can be “sunny”. I am not feeling all too very well, I’m tired most of the time. People have suggested that I’m eating too little – but if anything, I’m eating normal amounts of food – sometimes even too much. I ate a WHOLE pizza yesterday!** My hair is also not good, every time I brush it, some comes off**. It is not as I have bare spots or anything, but it feels thinner than before. And I have dandruff… so damn annoying! It is actually acting so stupid.. I have had my hair in a ponytail for at least half a year now. And then there is my knee… and a verruca (sounds better than wart) on my left foot – ugh! I feel so damn.. old? Like a witch? Something like that… I have to do something about these things…

  • Both the tiredness and thingy with my hair can be a lack of vitamin B (Especially B5). Even though I eat vegetables, fish, and everything – I can still have a lack of it. You never know since the body is such a complex machinery, vitamin deficiency can have MANY strange symptoms. Since vitamin B (at least B6 or B5) is water-soluble* and not fat soluble*, I might as well eat some extra – since I can’t get too much of it. Had some “bjäst”-pills lying around, which is.. yeast and some other substances (riboflavin, folic acid etc.). I also found a box of “Hårkontroll” which is supposed to be good for your hair and nails, these contain some extra minerals. The only bad thing is that they both contain vitamin B3 which I shouldn’t overdose – but we’ll see…
  • Since the school nurse told me, I’ll go to the doctor soon and find out what’s wrong with my hair…
  • When I’m there I will ask them about my knee as well. Until then, all I can do is.. continue my limping… and being enormously irritated since I can’t exercise.
  • And, I will go downstairs now – to take a pumice stone and rasp that ‘verruca’ as we called it…

* I’d say this is the basics about vitamins – if it is water-soluble you can hardly overdose it since the abundance will come out together with other water (like… wee-wee). But if a vitamin is fat soluble, it can be stored in your fat tissue and the amounts of it will only increase (if you are overdosing).

** I think I’ll have to explain, that I’m not anorexic. I am not starving myself or anything – because that often leads to vitamin deficiency and alopecia (and tiredness of course).

 // SockFusion, who is tired of the eternal ponytail…

Drama

Despite the title, we’ll begin with the slightly “calmer” news.

  • I’m free from school tomorrow! (A thing that only makes me and the rest of the people in my class happy, but still.. shared happiness is a little bit greater?) And… I still have a ton of homework to ‘machete’ my way through or something…
  • Ate dinner with dad and sisters today , although I’m still a bit frightened of pizza.. because of one particular ‘incident’ a few months ago… (believe me when I say.. you don’t want to know…) I actually ate some today – Aaand I also had some.. Panna cotta – for the first time ever! 0_o It was good, but I think I can make a better one, hehe… will be one of my projects to come ;P
  • Last week I ran too much, which resulted in this terrible pain in my left knee. Just a month left to the 5 km race in school! I have to improve my time, but things aren’t looking very good right now.. School nurse told me to go see a doctor :/
  • I’m obsessed with oat milk . I really really like the flavour of it, since it reminds me of the milk that’s left when you’ve eaten some sugary muesli or something (granola/crunchy/start…). And I like oats. I believe this is one of my benefits, just as I like broccoli and dislike hamburgers, sponge-cake and low-quality chocolate… those things are impossible for me to eat…

And then there’s the ‘DRAMA’ of todays post… which is a video. I can’t tell you anything else about it. Just watch it… because it is just simply AMAZING.. I wish I was there…

Well, good night to you all – I’ll try to get some of the sleep I missed last night .. and the night before that.. >_>

// SockFusion